The jealous are troublesome to others, but a torment to themselves

I have been tormenting myself.. over and over again. Guy #1 has a girlfriend now.. but he never told me! I can't even explain how shocked oo sad I felt when I heard from someone else about him. Ya3nii i know its selfish bss its an unwritten rule between us, its always been that way we tell eachother kilshay no matter what.. even if we're in a fight we always help the other if they need us.

And he wouldn't tell me such an important thing?? I want to ask him bss im worried what he will think, wallah i don't like him anymore.

So is it so wrong of me to be insanely jealous of the girl he's with now?

'Layan'.. I was good friends with her, nearly her only girl friend as she prefered to hang out with guys bss she moved and now shes going to uni in US. Ana oo Layan don't talk anymore since she moved bss I need to find out from someone how this all happened oo I don't want to ask Guy #1, so I'm just sitting around making myself miserable. I get long distance relationships oo i think its romantic and all but isn't it hard? I wish it was much simpler bss its not.

I'm not jealous that I don't get to be with him.. its not that ya3nii i do love Guy #1, hes 7ayatii bss I don't want to be that way with him, or anyone else really. I just wish he told me himself not that I had to find it out from someone else. Ww i'm being selfish but I'm scared she'll take up more of his time and we won't be as close anymore. I'm not ready to let that happen no matter what.

So here's my question.. what do you think of long distance relationships? I mean personally I think its so sweet but I don't think I could ever be in one myself. I guess it would be just too hard oo I don't know the guy really has to be worth it.

I'm just hoping I'll figure a way to sneak it out of Guy #1 without having to ask him outright ww update on mr man!! He didn't get the job.

Bss that doesn't mean he hasn't kept in touch ;)